waste, unsexy sex and loneliness

Some days, man. Those days, when you just sit at home all day, and don't do anything in particular. I mean, you might blog a little, make great food, or do homework, but you didn't go to school, and you didn't have coffee with your mates, and you didn't go out in the evening. In fact, you may not have met anyone at all, except, say, the cashier at the local grocery store, and two strangers on the way down there.

Days like those, man. They might be rewarding in their own sense, you know, just a chance to chill out at the end of a busy week. But whenever I have days like these, I get kinda depressed. Sure, I did productive things. I cleaned the apartment. I drew a portrait. I might've baked a pie, and I fixed that flat tire on my bike. How can I feel down when I did all these productive things?

In the end, I think it's mostly about who you meet rather than what you do. Humans are social creatures, we are dependent of one another. It doesn't matter if you were happy on your own, you'd probably have been alot happier if you could have done those things in some company. I dont think we even feel lonely, we just get down. One lonesome day does not make you lonely; only alone. It's like being tired. You get irascible, quick-tempered and your problems seem much larger.

I dont know why, really. Is it because you get to think more? You've time to reflect, time to scroll back over what's going on in your life? Thats not likely it, no. I dont feel that way. I think it comes down to that elementary, evolutionary drive. Have sex, breed offspring. After all, most of life's greatest pleasures can be related to the drive to proliferate; have children, and survive. I mean, love, sex, the ultimate hormonal coctails, we only feel these things to force us to breed. If feelings weren't of key importance in making us more effective at sexing it up, then we would not have them.

Thats how evolution works. Eating, sleeping, there is nothing arbitrary about us feeling good doing these things. Human life wouldn't be possible without eating, so of course it makes sense to make us feel good when eating, it encourages us to eat more, thus live longer, and have more children.

In the same way, social behaviour is important in making us feel well. Its a long proven fact, even though humans lived as nomads, we do better in groups. You know why yawning is contagious? Because more people yawning means more oxygen to more brains. Why do we feel well partaking in social behaviour? Because it means people stick around, and live longer.

That might be why I feel bad when I'm alone. Probably not. It's a rather diffuse explanation. Just saying I'm feeling lonely on a lonesome day would probably be a better explanation, in every conceivable and practical way.

A wonderfully philosophical gem from art class.

But I think analyzing everyday things from an evolutionary perspective is quite fun; It really downsizes humans. With all this humanitarianism and such glorification of the human race going around, its a breath of fresh air. Truly, we've been gifted with this wonderful mind, and we treasure it so, and it enables us to do so many things, yet, in the end only... Only to the purpose of having more sex than other animals? Brilliant.

Layouts and polarisation!

Recently, two things have taken a step towards complete awesomeness. Firstly, the blog layout has been improved! Secondly, my face!

I remade some of the blog layout! I changed the header, which was already over a year old (TIME FLIES I KNOW RIGHT!?), and had lots of really old art. It's more up to date now, and also syncs in with that stylish dark backdrop at the top, which is just neat. 

And it wasn't even a hassle to make! I made the old header using gimp, which was... Cumbersome. The tools for making uniform and organized pictures and templates aren't the best. Instead, I used some free web collage maker! Fotor! It's actually pretty darn useful! It even allowed the collage to have transparent borderlines, I love it. Just what I needed to improve my otherwise inefficient workflow.

What I also changed was the text font. The old one was a sans-serif font, and the new one, Cambria, is both stylish, and serifed. Why are serifs important? Well, they enclose the text. The serifs at the tops and bottoms of the letters together form a line, horizontally. This provides for easier reading. It goads the eye into moving left or right, rather than up or down, which it makes it easier to focus, especially for people with dyslexia or similar problems!

As for my face, I BOUGHT SUNGLASSES

More importantly, these are polarising sunglasses. Which is weird. Just look at this gif.

They turn completely black when turned sideways. lolwhat?.

Let me explain. Polarisation occurs in a kind of filter, which blocks out all lightwaves which dont point north or south. What?.. Well, Lightwaves, contrary to popular belief, arent just invisible lines or single particles. They are lines with a height, I guess you could say. Polarising filters are materials with grooves in them, and only wavelenghts of a specific orientation may pass through. Point is, all light has an orientation. An up, a down, a left and a right.

For example, the light that enters a filter is either horizontally or vertically aligned. A vertically polarising filter would block out the horizontal lightwaves, meaning only vertical wavelengths will remain. It's simple. The waves could also be pointing north-west, or whatever, that doesnt really matter. Half the light gets through, anyway.

Half? Then why does it turn completely black in the gif? Thats because LCDs emit polarised light. LCDs are pretty simple.

Theres a backlight, then comes a polarising filter (vertically). After that comes a liquid electronically activated or disabled lightwave rotator, and another polarising filter (horizontally). After this, the light meets your eye.

So the first polarising makes all the light vertical, by removing the horizontal light. After that, 2 things can happen. An electronically uncharged LCD pixel (Light rotating thing.) will leave the lightwave in its vertical state of existence, which means it will hit the horizontally polarising (blocks vertical light) filter and be absorbed. If the LCD pixel is charged, then the lightwave will magically be rotated (Its some fancy liquid material thing, I dont even know.), thus its horizontal when it hits the horizontally polarising filter, and it passes through, to our eyes. And thats how LCDs work.

You guys should all be experts on LCDs by now. How can I write about something so boring so many times? I dont know... Christ. So sorry.

Anyway, by adding another polarising filter into the LCD equation, I can make all the light go away. The verticality or horizontality of the filter of course change when I rotate the glasses, which is just... Fascinating. All the light that comes off the LCD is oriented the same way, and I can block out all of it with a single polarising filter.

Reflections are often polarised, which is particularly noticeable when looking at water. The reflections kinda... Go away when youve got polarising glasses on. Useful! Especially for fishers! I dont know why my glasses are polarising! I can't use them with my PC, or most phones, or my microwave oven! (The Lumia phone I use doesnt use the same technology as my LCD, and the light doesn't seem to be polarised :OO)

Yay physics!


Lots of text about lots of nothing. I was supposed to watch the season premiere of Game of Thrones tonight... God damn it.

venture into chemistry

I'm more of a physics man, really. Movement, friction, physical interaction, and that kind of stuff. Chemistry is... kinda drab, to be honest. Its vital, sure, and important in understanding and doing physics, but past that, I hold little interest in the subject.

Luckily, I'm not meaning to write about that kind of chemistry! Person to person chemistry! More precisely, man to woman. Or vice versa, however you like. Or in the same sex, if you bend that way.

So chemistry. Why do we find sexually attractive partners... So confusing? I mean, we all think in the same way, more or less. Sex and caring, that's what's wanted and needed. Why must it then be so complicated, why does it seem to men like some women intentionally write intricate and ambiguous poems in the stead of plain statements? Why must this be so difficult, so damn political? And gee, women don't understand us either. I guess we are just as confusing to them. Why... Its certainly not an evolutionarily brought forth trait, this cryptic nature.

When I was thinking about what to write about for this drawing, I thought I'd write about how people have buttons, and how we very rigidly react to these buttons being pressed, like how seeing something beautiful makes us happy, or things of that nature. I realize its not always that simple, especially not when there's 2 people involved. Perhaps it's moreof a lack of chemistry, rather than bad such. How would I know, people are so confusing.

It really is quite relevant to something else that has been keeping my attention lately. Ive been reading this book for an english project, and the book is called The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time. It's about this boy, this boy who suffers from Aspergers syndrome, which makes it very hard for him to comprehend feelings and emotions. Great book, I could copy the full analysis and put it here, too, but I dont think you readers would be very interested in reading that, anyway.

On one hand, hes a talented, free spirited, truly academic mind. Its so beautifully written, I could almost see myself in the place of this boy. But hes also so... Weird. I wonder sometimes, do I have fucking woman-aspegers? Oh, no. Its just some women. Which? I couldn't even begin to categorize them.

Oh, what a rare glimpse at my innards. Do I betray my confidence? I better stop writing, and just post the bloody art already.